Shouldn’t this be easier?

I delight in being a mother.  In hearing my kids giggle.  In watching them reach new milestones.

The achievement I am most proud of is keeping four small humans alive for the past eight years.

 

If all that is true, why is it so hard?  Why can’t we just build blanket forts, eat popcorn, and all get along all day?  Why do I find myself losing my temper over missing shoes and chewed up wooden blocks?  Why do I end the day mindlessly browsing the internet because I am completely drained?

I mean, if I was an astronaut, it would make sense that I would be out of sorts by the end of the day.  I’m claustrophobic, I’m terrible at driving, I’m not good with anything mechanical, and some of Ms. Frizzle’s science lessons are above my head.  I would be the worst astronaut.  It’s completely outside my set of strengths and preferences.  It would make sense that I would start smoking and develop a nervous twitch as an astronaut.  Any impatience or dissatisfaction with life would be understandable.

 

But mothering?  It’s what I was made for.

 

I’m the oldest of six children.  That means I’ve been bossing little people around since there were little people for me to boss.

My degree is in elementary education, and I love children’s literature and Laffy Taffy jokes.  I’m a whiz at giving lectures and inducing guilt.  I wear mom jeans and drive a mini van.  Could I be any mommer?  I’ve even had a mom haircut since junior high.

That leads me to the million dollar question:

Shouldn’t this be easier if it’s where I’m supposed to be?

I love these little humans fiercely.  But it is not easy, even with the deck stacked in my favor.  The spinning plates of motherhood stress me out.  No amount of babysitting and diaper changing as a high schooler or education classes in college prepared me for taxes and water softener salt and nitrates.

Yesterday I started the eCourse Temper Toolkit from Lisa Jo Baker.  I didn’t even get past the intro video before my first epiphany.

“Having a bad day doesn’t make you a bad mom.”

Yes.  Yes times a million.  Why did such a basic principle of motherhood have such a big impact on me?  I had to stop the video and do some thinking.

Maybe it’s just my idealized view of things, but thinking back a few decades ago, it seems like moms weren’t quite as frustrated or bent on perfection as they are now.  Sure, pinterest-envy has recently become a thing, and the de-simplification of life has increased the number of plates that are spinning.

We’ve sort of lost our collective mothering community knowledge base shared over fences and on front porches.  Sitting down for tea or coffee with another woman?  (Or even your own spouse or mother?)  That used to be a daily part of life.  Meals were shared.  Stories swapped.  Connections were made.

Having a bad day doesn’t make you a bad mom,” is exactly the thing that Dolores and Harriet and Betty would have told me back in the day as we were all hanging laundry in our adjoining back yards a few decades ago.  They would have commiserated about the times they did something similar and how they recovered.  How their kids are fine and my kids are fine, too.

And I would have gone back inside with my empty laundry basket, ready to try again.

Or if we lived in the country, I would have gone to church with my family and stayed for lunch afterwards, discussing my week with the other mothers as the kids played and husbands stood off in their own group.  It would be there that we would look into each other’s eyes and know how this whole motherhood thing was going.  We would have all gone home with the assurance that it would only be seven days before we’d be back again to share housekeeping hacks and chuckle over the cute things our kids said.

 

We have become islands with our air conditioning and clothes dryers.  Sure, we have the internet if we need to figure out how to get ink out of microfiber, but it’s not the same as chatting with five other moms on the block on your way to mail a letter or walk to the grocery store.  There isn’t someone who will tell you about her Johnny who used to do the same thing, and still ended up as a functional adult.  (Can someone just tell me all the stories about their weird kids who grew up to be functional adults?!?!)

Motherhood is hard because oftentimes it feels so very lonely.

There are online communities where people share stories and share resources.  Unfortunately I don’t have time to track down The Best Resource for frugal living and mom self-care and creative outlets and tips for getting it all done before the end of the day when it all starts over again.  I don’t want to spend time sifting through duddy pinterest links.

As I was looking through The Ultimate Homemaking Bundle resources, it dawned on me that that’s why I find it so appealing.  It’s sort of like having an online Dolores to suggest some organizational tips.  An experienced Betty to talk about how to stretch the budget.  A wise Harriet who can remind me of what’s really important in this mothering game.

I am grateful for the beautiful family I have, and I don’t want to waste time being crabby about holes in the wall.  Sometimes it’s just a matter of hearing someone else say, “They are just holes in the wall.  You can spackle over it when they move out.”

 

Let’s bring back communal motherhood.  (Is there a better word to describe this idea of having a network of support and community?  “Communal” makes me think of “communal bathrooms,” which are generally negative.  If you have a more precise word that doesn’t make me think of toilets, let me know before I start a whole campaign.)
I’d love to choose a resource from The Bundle to discuss here on the blog each month.  Let me know if there’s a particular resource you’d like to discuss.  Otherwise I’ll just choose.  🙂  It’s not quite the same as visiting over the fence, but still an opportunity to find community.

 

What about you?  What have you done to find your over-the-fence friends?

 

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11 Comments


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    Such a great idea! I’m still going back and forth on the bundle for myself…I just can’t decide. But I love the idea of a community of motherhood! Maybe “village motherhood”? It’s so true that we NEED each other’s supoort.

    And yes, I wonder the exact same thing about motherhood, and I only have one baby. Shouldn’t it be easier? Haha.


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    Oh so many thoughts and conversation starters here! I want to say more, but at this time can’t form a cohesive thought since it’s now apparently snack time in my house of busy boys. I’ll try to be back– but for now–I love the idea of this all!


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    “Having a bad day doesn’t make you a bad mom.”

    Oh, dearie me, am I guilty of thinking this one 🙂 Sounds like I should be taking the course too.

    I can’t wait to hear what you think of your other bundle picks. Discussing them on your blog is a great idea! I’ll be eagerly reading along.


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    Ooh, I’m game for the book club! Like half of the books are now on my to-read list (🙄🤓) so I’d love an online discussion. And Amen on bringing back community!


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      Sweet! Let me know if you have suggestions for what to tackle first. 🙂


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        21 days to a more disciplined life, making big life changes together, clutter free with kids…hard to decide where to start!


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          Right!?!? That’s the trouble I’m having, too. 🙂


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    I’ve been so fortunate to live in the same town with my lifelong best friend this year. We get together for coffee and/or general mischief, and it is the most refreshing thing.

    Connections remind us that we’re normal, that our problems are real and that how we feel about those problems is okay to feel. At least, they can do that, and should.


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    Having seem my wife handle “the spinning plates of motherhood” has made me very grateful to be a dad. Her – and your – half of the task looks challenging.

    My guess is that you are right – – – there is a need for ‘over the fence friendships.’ Even where there aren’t fences.


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    Great post! I’m doing 30 Days, 30 Ways for Mothers to Take Care of Themselves for the month of May, and read Haley Stewarts book already, but I haven’t started any courses yet!

    And yes please to a book club! Suggestions: Everyday Hope: Real Encouragement for Worn & Weary Moms, Making Big Life Changes Together: Pursuing Your Dreams as a Couple, Minimize the Mess: A Mother’s Guide to Simplifying the Home and the Temper Toolkit, to start.

    It truly is so important to find a community of supportive women. We’re moving in three weeks and I’m dreading the loneliness and missing all my dear friends I’m made here. Have you ever see this article? http://revolutionfromhome.com/2016/04/absence-village-mothers-struggle/ It’s exactly what you’re talking about.


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      Awesome article. Such truth. Thanks for sharing.

      Thanks for the recommendations! We’ll book club it up soon. 🙂

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